Questions

SHOULD I BE LIKE THEY SAY?SHOULD I OPRESS MYSELF?ONLY TO PLEASE EVERYONE?DO I ALWAYS DO EVERYTHING WRONG?HAVE I LOST THE FACULTIES OF FEELING OKAY ALL THE TIME? SHOULD I LISTEN TO THEM OR MYSELF?OR MaYBE I SHOULD LET LIFE TAKE ME THE WAY IT WANTS?DOES ANYBODY CARE ABOUT HOW I FEEL?NOONE HAVE EVER ASKED ME IF IT IS NOT ONLY FOR POLITENESS?MY FAMILY? They think I can take everythingMy friends? They think I’m always happyMe? I’m getting use to this emptiness and this mean that maybe in a few years I will be no more than a corrupted heart, an empty mind that is only used to follow, rotten dreams that always stayed in my mind but never tried to accomplish them and if I did everybody thought that was not important, that was only an immature mind that doesn’t know anything about life… why should I care what other people think? Maybe because that other people is my own family, how could I ignore what they think or what they have to say to me? All those are advices that I should take seriously… but why should I take them seriously if they never take me the same way? Am I only a stupid doll who doesn’t have the courage to make a decision herself?… I don’t know… the only thing I’m sure about is that right now I feel lost, I feel alone, I feel like a teenager when can’t go to a party and stay late and I don’t even understand why because I always have though of myself as somebody who can handle her life, her feelings and her actions… common… what’s happening to me?